...of my workout plans...I have neglected the gym for at least 9 months now. Really ridiculous because I have a membership, the gym is about 1 mile from my house, and to top it all off, it is open 24 hours a day. So the only real reason I can give you for not exercising there is that I am just a lazy POS when it comes to exercise. I have a love/hate relationship with exercise...I know that when I do it I feel MUCH better, but it is getting motivated to do it that seems to be my problem. I can always find an excuse for why NOT to go to the gym (too tired, too busy with other things that "have" to be done, etc.). I will get into a routine of going to the gym and really feel great, then something will happen to get me out of my routine (you know I love a schedule) and I am back to being a couch potato again!
I have had points in my life (college and first few years of work) when I was obsessed with exercise and did some form or another probably 4 times per week (gym, step/kickboxing classes, walking, running, etc). And let me tell you, while the Seasons were all together last weekend we brought out some old photo albums...that exercise I was doing back then was paying off. I looked great! It is funny because back then I thought I was such a fatty fatty 2 x 4...if I can get back to that body, I swear I am going to love it and enjoy myself! I think I have convinced myself that I looked about the same size-wise as I was back then..these pictures brought me back to reality. After I have this baby, I want to get back down to my "fighting" weight. It is probably 15 or 20 pounds heavier than what Weight Watchers recommnded for my height, but it is a weight that I think I looked good at and I was a size 8-10 at. I can live with that I think. Pre-pregancy I was a size 12-14 and that is just too damn big for me.
I guess being 22 weeks preggo is not the right time to be obsessing about weight and exercise but I do have another reason for this...Yesterday we were talking about shopping the day after Thanksgiving (this will be about a week before I give birth) and mom and Cedric said I probably won't be able to go b/c at that time in the last pregnancy I was on bedrest due to high blood pressure and very bad swelling. They were kind of joking with me about it, but in all honesty, it very could end up being the truth. I do not want a repeat of that. And with the heat of the last two weeks, I have already had some swelling of my hands and feet. My blood pressure was slightly elevated at my last ob/gyn visit. This scared me and I hope has motivated me to at least exercise a little. My goal is this: 3 times per week for at least 30 minutes of cardio. I did my first session today. 40 minutes and I walked 2 miles on the treadmill. If I get up at 5:40, I can get dressed, get to the gym and do my thing, and be home by 6:45 and ready to work at 7. No reason I cannot do this. I am hoping by writing about this I will be more accountable. It felt good today to move. I am proud that I did not just turn the alarm off and sleep another hour, because let me tell you, that is what I wanted to do...But day 1 is over and I was successful. I will keep you posted on how things go :)
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I am trying to get back on track as well..I have gained about 5 lbs over the last month! I feel HORRIBLE and about three pounds shy of the heaviest I have ever been (so now I have 10 lbs instead of 5 to get back to "old pre-grief/pre-my life went down the crapper weight"). So let's encourage each other :)!!
I made steak with onion and peppers and potatoes tonight. I am hoping that upping my veggies will help. I work out but it's not working. I think it's the food for me :(!!
Girl, as a fellow lazy POS about exercising - I feel your pain. Every day I berate myself for not exercising and eating better, and then I see a mirror and I want to curl up and die. *sigh* Battling weight is a PIA!
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