2 Weeks

Well, we have survived my first two weeks back at work. It has been tough on all of us to get back in the swing of things. Elizabeth seems to have adjusted pretty well to her 3 days a week at daycare. The first day she didn't sleep for a long stretch at all, but after that, I think she has been so tired that she can't help but sleep! On the days she goes to daycare, she is just exhausted. All she does when she gets home is sleep, which makes me kind of sad because I feel like I hardly get to spend any time with her on those days. Gabriel has had mixed feelings about returning to school. I think he likes seeing his friends but doesn't like having to be back on a schedule. He has gotten very spoiled while being at home with me. He has been doing what he wants, when he wants to do it...and this is just not possible at school. Things seem to go better when Cedric drops him off. Last week when I had to take him, he started crying when I woke him up. He begged me not to go to work and then he begged for me to take him with me to work. Then he sobbed when we got to school and I had to leave. He and the teacher watched me from the fence as I drove off. He was crying. Broke my heart. I didn't have to travel anywhere that day and I almost gave in and brought him home with me. But I knew if I did that, he would ask to do it all the time. Being a working mom just stinks sometimes. You are always torn. I enjoy my job and honestly don't mind it most days. The days go by pretty fast and I think what I do is very important. But it is hard dropping your kiddos off with someone all week long. You feel like you miss things and worry they won't love you as much as they did when you were home with them. I am thankful that I only work 4 days. Granted they are four long days, but I love having an extra day just to be at home hanging out together. But-- it is hard to be at home because I feel like there are so many things I need to be done (laundry, cleaning, paying bills, etc.) I have to make sure that I am spending quality time with the kiddos when we are together. There are just not enough hours in my day right now to get all the things that HAVE to be done completed, much less time to do things I just enjoy (such as reading, blogging, etc.). I wish I could clone myself! Ok, enough of this pity party :) Gaby is watching a movie and Elizabeth is asleep, I am going to do some more laundry!